Wonders.

Always lost in my thoughts whenever I am watching a movie, sitting on the bench in the park, laying on my bed, in my classes, before I actually sleep and also while I am singing a lullaby to my little brother every night, sometimes my thoughts are so jumbled that it is impossible to figure out what is actually troubling me and that annoys me. 

I always enjoy my long, romantic walks to the fridge but I feel lazy to leave my bed to go in the kitchen at times so I want a fridge in my room but I don't think it's a good idea. So I always shake a bottle of water and observe the little bubbles forming all over and it is fantastic to see little things in life work and every time I wonder how it can happen. I just love bubbles because they remind me of how this life is, it is like an illusion that can break any second and you don't even get time to realize where you are standing now, you look around and see nothing at all.

My aunt is now expecting her baby in some weeks insha'allah, I am so hyper and excited to have another cousin whether it is a boy or a girl. I wish downloading babies could be possible, I love babies so much that I want to have as many children as I can when I will be married someday in the future. I was talking to her last night on the phone and she was so delighted and not nervous at all and that kind of assured me in a way. Having a baby is a miracle in itself because you are carrying a little being in your womb and guard it for 9 long months. It is a wonder how a baby keeps on developing little by little and scientists still wonder about the existence of a foetus at times and how it comes in this world and brings so much joy to everybody. Nowadays there is cloning where the scientists can make an identical being like you and it ages twice than a normal human being and we can to recognize the power of God how our organs are functioning perfectly and the way we are. The way we are different from each other, that is a miracle indeed because we can then identify ourselves in this big, wide world. 

Sometimes I find the concept of marriage strange because how can two people promise to stand by each other in happiness and sadness? How can you not get tired of that same person when you see him/her the entire day? Bearing with their usual rants and habits all the time, I can seen some successful marriages but it still seems impossible to me to see such a scene. I find it annoying to share my pizza to somebody else, how will things happen for me? I always fight for the television remote with my little brother, how will I give the remote to that particular being? What if I have to eat stuffs that I am not used to just to please him? Being committed to a person for the rest of my time is something unimaginable. But I want babies and marriage is the only solution in some years.