Clowns and laughs.

I was always fascinated by clowns since I was 5, a lot of things happened with clowns during my childhood because on my every birthday party my dad brought 3 clowns to entertain everybody and I love them so much as I laughed until my back ached. I even pulled one of the clowns' nose and that red thing landed on my tiny hands, it's my nature to be curious as the meaning of life seems weird but apparently the clown simply smiled at me, that's what I have been told. I am now scared of clowns ever since I watched too many scary films which I don't remember the names anymore, they creep me out because they can get evil if needed and cut you into several pieces without mercy.

Reflecting well on these beings, I have been discovering something about them. Clowns make you laugh but are they happy? They are so bright on the outside, with some sort of hidden misery on the inside. Looks could be deceptive. We can be smiling and laughing but who can know what are we hiding in our hearts? I wonder if everybody's lives was different behind the facade. Even Mr Bean who makes the world laugh with his stupid actions is actually Sir Rowan Atkinson who is very serious in real life.

Moreover I am laughing very loud since last year just like a horse. And whenever I am in a food court, listening to my friend's jokes, I laugh so loud that people turn around to see who is that crazy person but I don't mind anymore because wherever I go in this world, people always stare at me when I am laughing so it is not something new to me but I have noticed something, every year my laugh changes and I wonder if it is a bliss or a curse. It has been told to me that my laugh is funnier than my jokes and I have been given the nickname : the laughing machine. But I am happy with my laugh because I am able to make others laugh and forget everything for a while and not everybody has that power to do so. At times you should stop caring about what people think about you because it is when you stop being yourself and become somebody different. You are the one who defines yourself so don't let others do that task. Whoever have been staring at me at malls or food courts, keep on doing it. We are all on social networking sites because it is the trend these days because technology controls all of us and we type 'LOL, LMAO, LMFAO, ROFL.' even if we don't laugh at all at the lame stuffs on the sites. Being able to laugh heartily is one thing and faking a laugh is something else.

Finally I am the one who makes myself laugh most of the time because I am too clumsy and I end up throwing coffee or tea on my complete assignments and do them all over again, before I used to get angry but now I simply laugh at whatever I do and make my friends laugh. I used to stick chewing gum on my teacher's chair and her skirt always got torn but she always knew that it was me who did it but laughed along with me, she was a jovial person. I go along with the wild and crazy people to be honest.   Don't ever take life seriously, nobody gets out alive anyway.